In the past two years I contacted
pastors,ministers,and a christian
counselor and I asked them why did
God perform miracles on me and why has there been so much horror and
bad things in my life? Some said God is preparing me for something
some said God has a purpose for me
and when the time is right I will know it.Since all the good and bad
started in 1999 the christian counselor told me I'm in a spirtual
war between God and Satan and they both want me.I told him he must be
mistaken he asked me if I could explain why God performed miracles on me and why there has been so much bad in 9 years? I contacted another man who is a therapist by
profession and he's also a devoued
christian.I told him of a nightmare
I had last month.I dreamed that I died and there were no mourners.I saw myself in a coffin and there were only (Black Walls) around me.
Everyone has nightmares but that was dark and morbid.I wrote a post
about the subconscious and I asked
several religious experts why did this happen? One woman who works on my day job is very devoued and she also teaches Sunday school she told me don't give up even though
God is testing me he won't leave me
and he won't put more on me than I can endure.It took a long time but
I finally accepted there's a reason
for all this.
